I'm a Dreamer

I kept staring at the screen not knowing how to begin this entry. A lot of feelings in my mind are hungry to be written, but I am not exactly sure how to translate those feelings into words…

I have been talking to a dear friend of mine about to enter her 11th grade; she wants to be a Chef. I told her that her dream is wonderful, not many locals are famous by their cooking and own a restaurant. She told me she had obstacles, that there is a high possibility that her dream won’t exactly happen.

I was just like her when I entered highschool…

I was this girl full of various dreams. My imagination was wild and I saw myself in different places. I saw me as a cartoonist in Japan, all of these people around me, waiting for me to make up an idea for the next anime. Everyone praised me on my light hand in drawing; everyone was waiting for my next sketch. People came to me in the middle of the mall and said, “Oh my God, it’s HER who drew that anime!!” and come ask for a quick caricature. That dream was amazing.

Another one I had when I was in grade 11, I was a photographer. I held my camera in my hands like a professional, saw the world in a different perspective. Roam the Earth for photos people have never seen before! Open a gallery for myself, exhibitions with grand openings, high ranked business men came to my gallery and asked for a few of my photographs; it was a way of living! It was marvelous.

I was obedient in my 12th grade; I had a bigger dream. I believed in myself, I believed that a tiny person like me CAN change people’s perspective to many things. I believed that I can accomplish things others never had the chance to. People say, start where others ended; I say, I start from where ever I want because this is MY journey, MY accomplishments under MY name. I wanted to be a director. I saw me in that position. Those aviator shades, underneath them lies a big smile, before it held a huge microphone that is yelled at “CUT” and “ACTION”; having to put a leg over the other, watching people move under my command is just… my dream.

I faced a hell lot of obstacles. I didn’t exactly get the needed support from my family, but I convinced them, because when there is a will, there’s always a way. Also, people around me kept talking about the society and how most of them don’t accept a woman as a director, but hey, I am not playing here, I am working to change people’s point of views towards many aspects in life! To prove them wrong! To tell them that a woman CAN be whatever she wants AND be part of the society whatsoever.

But then again… reality strikes in.

You dream as much as you want, you feed your imagination with wild horizons; all these 14 years in school are just a journey to reality, university. Normally, inspirations around you make you want to dream more, dream big, but when the time comes, you should take those inspirations and make then a solid reality. Be this person who takes his childhood dreams all the way up! Never give up your dreams for some obstacles, those are just the “bricks” that you’ll pass by in your journey! They shouldn’t let you down; these are YOUR dreams along with YOUR own unique inspirations! Who knows, you may inspire a lot of audience out there.

I know a friend called Dubai Abulhoul (@DubaiAbulhoul on Twitter), masha’Allah she didn’t even wait till university! She turned her dreams into reality when she’s only in the 7th grade (Youngest Director in the Middle East, GFF)! She’s in the 10th grade now and she's such a wild dreamer, and I can proudly admit that this 10th grader inspired me. She’s an idol to those in her age, younger AND elder.

A lot are able to dream, not a lot are able to make it happen.
Be different, make it happen.







PS: took me 2 days to write this, I hope it’s as good as it seems x)