My brain tangled in a whole new way, my head craving for salvation, my eyes burn, my cheeks suffer from the carved path of tears, my ears bleeding, refusing to absorb the truth, my cracked lips trembling with fear, fear of being forgotten…
My distorted thoughts knock me down whenever I implore for a peaceful moment; vague screams, nebulous shrieks, exactly like a dark room and all that you can see is faded hands reaching for the apex, pleading for some mercy…
My heavy head leaning to one side, asking my eyes to shut their lids before losing control of the rest of my body, before losing its’ balance to stay strong and vigilant, to face the demons that are hovering over me, murmuring transgression into my bleeding ears…
“COMMEMORATION?” my lungs yell. Bursting in tears, air seems like it lost its’ way into my throat; sobbing, struggling to breathe while my lungs are vehemently pounding against my ribs; a guilty desire to escape…
Those shuddering hands of mine trying to reach my face, trying to wipe my singed cheeks from all those burning salty droplets, but again, failing to make me feel any better. “There is no breakout,” my hopeless conscience reminds me…
Now what? …Till when? Why…?
Those words that are invading my mind are kind of keeping me company at the moment. Instead of being cuddled alone under the sheets, hard to rest my head on the wet soaked pillows, thinking of 'you' makes it all. I do not like placing blames upon anyone, but I beg of you not to leave grasp of my hand… I do not want to be a dimmed memory fading as you move on with your life… I divulge the enigma in me, I am afraid…
I can sense my heart thudding in my head, panting due to racing thoughts… My toes are cold even though I’m all covered up, my fingers have turned to purple; goosebumps on every inch my body, chills making my spinal chord stand up straight… My vision is getting blurry, my thoughts cleared the field, my mind is light… I'm losing control, I’m falling on my back; it’s hard to breathe…
I feel… numb.
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